I don’t know if it’s because things at home are a bit rough or I just don’t have time to spend with friends or even myself, but I’ve been feeling anxious to grow up and have a (more) stable life. And be married. Well, not married, but not living with my parents. I guess I’m confused as to why I want to grow up so fast these days and already settle down. Escapism? Somebody please share with me how I can better enjoy my 20s with little-to-no time on weekdays, with very few friends in town and a boyfriend a 5-hour busride away. I just want to spend my days working, and my nights and weekends just relaxing with him and a puppy, reading, going antiquing, taking daytrips, visiting small markets.
Basically, I wish I could fast-forward a few years – and really, when I think about it, that’s no way to live – to wish you could skip the present. These days I’m just existing, but I want to live and enjoy the time I have right now, no matter how bland it may be or how trapped I may feel.
